the how-i-lost-my-burger story

after genetics exam, my friend suggested we go to mcdonalds which is few blocks away from home. well,im not suppose to have any mcdonalds burger [at least until i have my cholestrol level checked] so, i thought of having filet-o-fish... good girl! but quarter way, i thought "one double cheese burger wont do me any harm,and i can postpone my blood test later"



then I called home. and when i said

me:ok la ma, jap lg nk gi makan ni....
mama:ha,nak makan ape tu...?kamu jangan nak makan yg kolestrol2 sgt ikah...dah pergi check utk bulan ni belum?
me:ikan2..makan ikan...burger ikan...aaa...esok2 nak pergi amik darah
mama:kalau x turun lg kolestrol tu,kurangkan lagi makan yag minyak2 tu...

then abah. and we come to this point

abah:dah pergi check darah?
me:belum2...esok abah,esok...ok la abah nak gi makan ni...lapar giler..
abah:ha, tu nak makan ape lagi tu?
me:ikan.burger ikan.daging2 ni ikah da x makan dah...burger daging lagi x makan...xde2...



so, i'm sooo not the kind that lie to my parents.so i ordered filet-o-fish. last time i went to mcdonalds i only had mcflurry...and its been a month since i last have burger from mcdonalds or any other fastfood chain... and i have been refraining myself from it.

btw, i have hypercholestrolemia. its nothing serious as mama always said before but today she opened up.

me:ma, ikah tanye la ngn doctor ikah...[referring to dr.nidal...of course i didnt tell him, i was asking bout myself...] ape kena mengena short of breath dengan hypercholestrolemia...as we took in patho kan... then he said,
mama:memang lah. salur darah tu dah tersumbat...
me:haah...dia kata, ada satu point tersumbat, pastu effect jantung, pastu oksigen dalam lung..
mama:u see, belajar ni mmg interesting...bla bla bla...


salur darah tersumbat? mama really makes me feel like, i do have occluded vein... and not to mention, dr. yusouf who seems like out of example in our biostat lessons... i can never recall a single lecture which he didnt say the word hypercholestrolemia...at least it does make me think for a while, ooooo i really should work on this problem.

so, say no to high-cholestrol food. hello healthy life-style!

p/s: im packing my stuff cuz we're leaving this villa. wait for csi returns [once we have internet la...]

*hypercholestrolemia : : the presence of excess cholesterol in the blood

proaktif...reaktif...dan hidup segan mati tak mahu...

tadi aku dah menulis panjang.tp, dek kerana masalah teknikal..terpadam semua yang aku tulis, draft pun takde...sedih3...

jadi, kita ringkas dan straight to the point...

dalam hidup ni, aku dah menemui cik proaktif,P cik reaktif,R dan cik "hidup segan mati tak mau",H. satu hari mereka menaiki kapal terbang dan terhempas di sebuah pulau yang x pernah dijadikan lokasi pengambaran survivor mana2 season sekalipun. lalau P, sesuai dengan sifatnya terus meneroka pulau tersebut untuk survival... dan R, bila lapar dia mencari makanannya, bila panas dia bina tempat berteduhnya.bila dahaga dia menemukan sungai. Tapi H, duduk2 saja, dengan harapan sebatang pokok aneka buah akan tumbang di depan matanya dan plopp ade sebakul buah2an tropika terhidang di hadapannya....maka berlaparlah saja H sepanjang keberadaan mereka di pulau tersebut...

bila penyelamat sampai, H masih menunggu je lah sampai penyelamat tu jemput dan mendukungnya naik ke bot penyelamat... sedangkan P dan R dengar aje bunyi bot dah berlari2 ke gigi air... maka terselamatlah ketiga-tiga mereka ini...

aku pernah jumpa ramai P dalam hidup ini. antaranya mama. memang proaktif. bukan akulah orangnya nak bawak travel bag berisi sebuku roti gardenia jumbo, 2 pasang baju bersih untuk setiap orang, kek pisang dan pisau multipurpose polis hutan nak pergi snorkelling... aku siap fikir, malu nye...orang lain berlenggang je... kita dah macam nak naik gunung tido 2 malam... ye, akhirnya aku lah yang lapar, dan sebagai seorang R, aku pun mintak, "mama, nak kek pisang!!!" yeay...! aku melihat orang yang proaktif sebagai yang sentiasa berfikiran ke hadapan, dan dia memikirkan penyelesaian jika dia nampak ada masalah di hadapan. seorang proaktif nampak jalan-jalannya dan peluang2 yang tidak dilihat orang lain.

Aku melihat Reaktif sebagai orang yang mampu merespon pada persekitarannya. bila perlukan sesuatu, maka ia berusaha, by any mean neccessary. dia mungkin x nampak peluang dan jalan yang beyond the limits, tapi bila dia nampak jalan dan peluangnya, dia tahu dia perlu mengusahakan sesuatu.

tapi aku melihat H, sebagai manusia tidak berpersonaliti. baiklah, H sakit kepala, lalu dia mengulang2 "aku sakit kepala...aku sakit kepala..." adakah minyak cap kapak atau cap dua singa akan tiba-tiba membasahi dahinya? kalau dia lapar dan dia meratib "lapar..lapar..." apakah akan hilang laparnya??? kalau tak dipecah ruyung manakan dapat sagunye... x gitu cik nah... haih~ kita kena berusaha H,bergerak ke hadapan. baru la malaysia maju 2020...

Aku mahu sesekali menjadi P.tapi lazimnya aku hanya seorang R. Ya Allah, jangan jadikan aku H. jika anda H, maka masih tidak terlewat untuk anda berubah. tapi, jika anda terpaksa deal dengan H, rasanya tak ada apa yang boleh kita lakukan.mari kita doakan H berubah setidak2nya menjadi R.

aku menulis malam ini, break study genetics sebab tadi abah kata "bace la sikit2...ape yang patut..." huwahuwah

100 Qs, the 2nd half

im not really that bored...but i just want to finish what i started.

51. What were you doing last night at 11.00pm?
#finishing the 1st half of this tag

52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
#yea.but i could have been happier

53. What song best describe your love life?
#hmmm...

54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
#i have no idea

55. Who always make you laugh?
#abah n along n babe

56. Do you speak other language other than English?
#yes

57. favourite website(s)?
#postsecret

58. What's your middle name?
#atiqah

59. What are you doing tomorrow?
#attending genetics lab...yeay!

60. What do you think you are like?
#a cartoon character

61. Who will you choose to die with?
#anyone but before my beloved ones

62. Where have you been today?
#college

63. What game do you play often?
#chess

64. Who are you missing right now?
#everyone at home... =(

65. If you have to choose between friend and loves, who will you choose?
#love.

66. What are you doing right now?
#finishing this tag

67. Which primary school are you from?
#sekolah kebangsaan TANJONG RAMBUTAN

68. Name 3 colours that you like?
#pink,black and brown

69. What emotion you like to show?
#whatever eases others

70. What is your life to you?
#rainbow

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
#call home

72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
#mohamad

73. Who do you admire most?MOST??
# malcolm X for the time being

74. Which month are you born in?
#march

75. How are you feeling right now?
#good

76. What is the time now?
#12.52 pm

77. what kind of person do you think is best to be your friend?
#considerate, honest

78.What colour did you use to dye hair?
#never

79. Why are you doing this test?
#i have no idea why

80. What do you do when you're moody?
#clean

81. At which age you wish to get married?
#25

82. Who is more important to you? Girlfriend or friends?
#this Q is corrupted

83. If today is the last day of your life, what will YOU DO?
#balik umah la....and tell my feelings to people i love

84. Who is the person you trust the most?
#babe

85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?

#need i say more?

86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
#a chocolate shop i own

87. What is your goal for this year?
#better scheduled life

88. Do you believe in eternity love?
#definitely~

89. What feeling do you love most?
#loved

90. Do you really think its Global Warming now?
# H no

91.What feeling you hate the most?
#being arounf bad mood people

92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
#maybe

93. Do you believe in God?
#yes

94. Who cares for you most?
#i think...abah n mama..n along..n babe...

95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
#love and respect

96. What will you bring when you fight?
#armour

97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
#please ask me for appropriate answer

98. What would you feel if no one no longer cares for you?
#not gonna happen

99. What if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you?
#i'll die of sudden death

100.HOW DO U FEEL NOW?
#yeay i've finished!!!

100 Qs

im freaking bored....and yana put this into my head, when u're bored, do tags!

01. What have you been doing recently?

#watched Madagascar 2, some crackers and hot drinks

02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?

#definitely...i'm mean.

03. What happened at 10.00am today?

#studying patho lab material in library

04. When did you last cry?

#watching csi-season 9 when warrick brown died [spoiling to those who didnt know]... tears were like waterfall when Grissom was giving speech on his funeral.

05. Believe in fate/destiny?

#definitely!

06. What do you want in your life right now?

#good night sleep

07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?

#i'm a hood person.go hoodie!!!

08. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed?

#winter blankie

09. What bottom are you wearing now?

#pyjamas

10. What's the nicest text in your inbox say?

#abah dan mama lagi sayang,anak bongsu lah katakan...-giler sweet

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?

#nope.i jz want to be happy

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?

#nope

13. What was the last movie you caught?

#MADAGASCAR 2 - escape to africa

14. What are you proud of?

#muslims are all brothers

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?

#Askm lil sis.Hows life? Ok ka? Lalu makan tak? Lecture dah start ke? Jgn dok asyik ingat ulu kinta je.May Allah bless u with courage n patience. -along,6/9/2007 10.01 pm

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?

17.Do you have any nicknames?

#yes.at least 7 that i remember.

19. What time did you go to bed last night?

# 11 something...with lots and lotsa patho i didnt finish.

20. Are you currently happy?

#yea.but few days before nope.

21. Who gives you best advice?

#abah,mama,along,kakak,angah,sarah,naemah.

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?

#yea.i think its cute.dont u?

23. Who did you talk on phone last night?

#few calls.but last was una...and she's only next room.

24. Is anything bugging you right now?

#yea.but it is a stupid thing, n im getting over it

25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?

#madagascar 2....freakin funny.

26.Do you wear toe socks?

#nope

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?

#i refuse to answer.

28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?

#"patah tumbuh hilang berganti"

29. What annoys you most in a person?

#people who take things for granted, especially public toilet.

30. Do you have a crush on anyone?

#not at the time being.

31. Have you ever done cocaine?

#heh. i cant even see where's my snuff box on my hand..cett

32. What is the colour of your room?

#pink + red . loveeee it

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?

#depends on modus operandi

34. Do you believe in the saying of :"talk is cheap?

#yea. talk is cheap, and people who gets in action rawks!!!

35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?

#mardhiah and she's still here.

36. Who was the last person to hug you?

#didnt remember....i got hugged like,everyday???its jordan!hugs and kisses is our handshake.!

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?

#i cant recall

38. Do you have a life?

#definitely!

39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didnt die?

#yea...and abah said i shouldnt.

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?

#hadnt put any...but if i do, must be because i want to share wif u lah

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?

#mar,waking me up for subuh...then oso got my family and other irbidians.

42. Last time you smiled?

#i smile a lot...and some says too much... but i cant accept flirtous okey...

44. What are you listening right now?

#rehab - amy winehouse

45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?

#yea...mar..cant hardly hear her..hahah

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?

#open...i cant even walk when my eyes are are open but without my glasses.

47. Is there a quote you live by?

#not really. i use quotes when needed...practical lah konon...

48. Do you want someone you cannot have?

#lols.it is dumb, isnt it? we can never have everything we wanted.

49. Have you ever played an instrument?

#yep. keyboard and its derivatives, drums, tamborine and a "mama and abah-will-kill-you" instrument...

50. What was the worst idea you've had in this week?

#hahah...im sure u wouldnt wanna know... =P

another 50, i save it for my other boring night...cuz im soooooooo sleepy n i need my sleep...cuz pharmacology lecture awaits for tomorrow....nite2...

same old story, in broader spectrum

haih... maka sebaik sahaja keluarnya fatwa dari Majlis Fatwa Kebangsaan tentang 'pengkid' maka panaslah bumi Malaysia [agaknye lah panas...ak pon xde kat tempat berkenaan...ke sensational je lebihnye...] dengan wanita2 serta wanita2 yang x berapa suka nak nampak macam wanita yang merasakan diri mereka di oppress by fatwa berkenaan... nak ketawa dan memang ketawalah bila tgk sorakan "short hair who care" serta ayat sambungannye yang x tergamak nak ditulis kat sini...[kalau nak tgk search lah kat youtube uploaded by malaysiakini,x kuasa nak letak video tu kat sini pun...] temanye... ketahuilah bahawasanya the fatwa is only implied to muslims. jadi timbul mentol toing2.. kenapa ye yang x terlibat pulak smgt sgt nk protest...


inilah namanye menangguk di air keruh...cewah2..ntah betul ntah tidak je penggunaan bahasa ku ini... yang penting umat Islam sepatutnya jangan melatah... memaki hamun pihak terbabit dengan bahasa kesat kat youtube comment...is never a smart thing to do... for Islam has never thought us to harm others verbally nor physically...kan kan kan??? inilah peluangnya menonjolkan kelebihan islam... suppose yang ahli dalam urusan ini counter semula serangan2 protestants terbabit... dan yang bkn ahli, jangan memburukkan keadaan dengan memberikan impression yang buruk ttg Islam... mungkin satu mujadalah sangat sesuai diadakan dengan orang yang x puas hati sangat tu... note: berhikmah bukanlah berlemah lembut semata2... dan yang menentang ni pun bukanlah school drop outs ataupun mana2 celebrity wannabe semata2... these are educated people we're talking about, who sees every single ruling implies on muslim women as a form of oppression. so, in my opinion, it is best to conduct a debate with them and justify the hikmah of this ruling. dan tibalah masanye, muslim women to stand up and tell the world how Islamic rulings has given us a greater sense of being respected and protected.


dari link satu blog, ak pun tiba di harian metro...dengan wawancaranya dengan pengkid yang sangat bangga dengan identiti,cara hidup dan kekasihnya... sekejap aku terdiam... ini macam punya orang pun ada ka... "saya tahu apa yang saya buat ni dosa, tapi nak buat macam mana..." mafhumnye begitu, siapa nak jawab soalan ni... nak buat macam mana...??? jelasnye, sistem pendidikan kita tak cukup menekankan isu aqidah... nak buat macam mana...???


point nye yang nak disampaikan supaya jelas ye pua2 sekalian...

• yang berkemampuan, ayuh [hamboi...ayat...] prove it that we're not being oppressed, BY ANY MEAN NECCESSARY...
• yang tergolong dalam golongan yang dinyatakan, selagi pintu taubat masih terbuka... i've been repeating this and will repeat it again, tomorrow is never guaranteed... mungkin ada untuk dia, x ada lagi untuk kita.
• yang tak berkenaan, why not ask for explanations...why such things had to be implied instead of just screaming on the street... when u choose to be what u are today, i'm sure members of MFK didn't go on the street,holding banners against ur behaviour nor screaming "STUPID lessies everywhere..." ryte?-perhaps none of u read my blog, but who knows...
• perhaps MFK should stress upon gay couples + mak nyah as well; so people can accept that both genders are not allowed to behave like the opposites and homosexuality is definitely forbidden, and not just some ruling appointed to women only.

i've seen the same situation before in my life as i did go to girl school.

It is the same old story,in broader spectrum.

hope that brings us no where.

assalamualaikum.

two months of no-onebonez-blogging, life was different.i mean, reaaaaaallly different. i realized that i just cant. i felt like almost similar to losing my spectacles, u know like, u have eyes but u cant see. no onebonez in my life means i have thoughts to share but i have no place to spill everything. [though perhaps most people dont even realize that i closed onebonez.i did thought of re-URL-ing but, onebonez can never be replaced]so, thanks Allah, for giving me the thought of re-living onebonez.

and yea, thanx the new POTUS, Barack Obama, his supporters and every single person who despises him as well.

on the day Obama wins president, i encountered different reactions and responses from people around me. some dont even care.some were happy, some were worried, some thinks that his winning is a light of hope, some thinks that his winning is terrifying. i personally was quite happy. if u ever notice, i am quite a racist. i am happy that he won.

unfortunately some were so unease at his winning. i watched some video on obama's view on middle east issue, america-israel relationship.etc. anyway...it did make me worry over obama's winning. but then i realize, what's the point of being worried or cursing his winning. why do we bother discussing possibilities of Obama's action next. there's something better to do.

PRAY. u might have read somewhere that he was once a muslim, his father and step father were muslims, be they radical to non-practicing. [let the news be true or not] at least there are possibility that he was once a Muslim. the thing is, its our part to pray that Allah gives him hidayah to embrace Islam and bring changes not only to the States, but also the countries who were declared enemies in their eyes. perhaps, Allah will give him hidayah so our brothers and sisters, in the States or middle east countries could live life the way they should. Many of us forget not to pray for our brothers and sisters in Palestine, but how many of us pray that the oppression on them will be stopped by Allah giving guidance to those oppressors.

For our hearts are in HIS hands, do pray that we'll all be blesed by HIS guidance, and their hearts as well...and prayers are our weapon;who knows perhaps its ur prayer that will be answered by HIM.

hope brings us no where, for what we do will make the impact.do your part.