Saturday, January 30, 2010

ho ho ho holiday~~~

winter break is definitely my favorite holiday. if u're not from JUST please be informed yang cuti2 kami adelah winter break, spring break and summer hols. winter and spring gives us nice 2 weeks short hols and summer lebih kurang dalam sebulan, where irbid is almost as empty as possible of Malays. winter kali ni pun agak sunyi jugak dari melayu, my buildings ni tinggal the three of us, cik rokoiah, cik sopiah dan cik tambun. yg lain semua pakat holiday merata alam. duit euro kat money changer pun habis semuanya... nak2 pulak euro jatuh menjadikan 1euro=1JD..wah3... sakan lah cik jah kite bershopping nanti nampaknye...

kepada semua yang bercuti (mestilah tak membaca blog ini lagi kan) didoakan selamat2 semuanya dan semoga dipermudahkan semua urusan... and as for me, masih tergendala agenda nak unclutter my space and my life, huhuhuh... mom's already starting her countdown to see me, which is lebih kurang 6 bulan lagi insyaAllah... tunggu cukup duit dulu baru boleh balik.. so, the plan was to do some catch up reading cuz i have lotsa books to read, bila buku text tak terbaca, nak membaca buku lain mmg rasa sangat bersalah okey.. so, holiday beginilah boleh kita hidupkan amalan membaca.. bersesuaian dengan kempen mari membaca tu lah kan.. membaca jambatan ilmu kata orang..

alhamdulillah we finished the first semester... it's been a rough journey, and thank you for those who had always been there to support me. =) see u next semester inshaAllah.

my love

muaz thinking on how to get attention from people - hey, maksu knew this trick already lah! and i know that muka tak mandi.. semua org mmg susah mandi pagi sebab dkt rumah wan air sangat sejukkkkk....!!!
muaz was excited to see the chicken family... and bising2 "makde, monkey" when he saw kera on pokok ciku.
muaz nak menangkap ayam... kawasan puncak bukit umah arwah wan dah semakin sempit.. dulu seronok boleh main ramai2 kat tepi rumah, sekarang nak main sangat pun bahaya sebab dah dekat sangat ke lereng bukit.
azam's funny faces, cutie pie =)

azam loves laughing ;;)) maksu too!!!

lots of love, maksu =)

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

ho chak ho chak ho chak!!!

satu lagi paper!!!
ho chak! ho chak! ho chak!!!
bak kata encik along lah tu.
time kasih seme tlg doakan ikah.
tak sabar tunggu habis exam, walaupun tak habis baca lg ni. huhu
jom lah kita habiskan paper/skrin terakhir ni dengan penuh rasa beriman.
ingatlah Allah itu ada bersama hamba-hambaNya.

abah selalu kata : kan Allah dah bagitahu, mintaklah drpd Aku, Aku akan bagi.
abah selalu kata : ingat atau tak ingat, itu semua Allah yg bagi. Faham atau tak faham pun Allah juga yang bagi.
abah selalu kata : rilek2 je ikah...jangan stress2..

tiap2 kali pun dengar benda yang sama, tapi setiap kali nk juga dapat re-assurance.huhu.
i miss home. =)

Saturday, January 23, 2010

buat apa di usia 20-an

Assalamualaikum.

entry hari ni, mengajak muhasabah saja. by the way, terima kasih atas doa-doa dan sokongan kalian. Semoga kita semua beroleh keredaanNya. amin.

Usia 20-an ni, adalah usia paling produktif untuk kerja-kerja yang berfaedah. untuk kerja-kerja tak berfaedah, usaha optimum macam mana pun, memang tak produktif lah sebab tak berfaedah kan.

Ada orang di usia macam sekarang ni, dia sibuk menjadi aktivis, menegakkan kebenaran ataupun menegakkan benang yang basah. mana-manalah.
Ada orang di usia macam sekarang ni, dia sibuk melontar batu bata regim tentera Israel, mungkin jugak ada yang mati syahid. subhanallah.
Ada orang di usia macam sekarang ni, di universiti-universiti, belajar dalam pengkhususan masing-masing, berusaha dengan jaya, nanti grad mungkin dapat 1st class honor. congratulations, semoga berjaya.
Ada orang di usia macam sekarang ni, hujung minggu keluar dengan kekasih hati, malam sekolah mungkin duduk dalam bilik menonton dan siang hari pergi sekolah macam biasa. Minggu exam, tak ada dating2, atau mungkin jugak pergi study sama-sama kalau kekasih hati tu adalah rakan sekelas, dan study sungguh2 sebab nak dapat result elok jugak.
Ada orang di usia macam sekarang ni, sibuk membanting tulang empat kerat, dulu tak mampu nak masuk universiti, jadi sekarang kena kerja keras untuk sara keluarga.

Ada orang...
Ada orang...

aku hari sekolah pergi sekolah. balik rumah mungkin blog, mungkin calling2 mama n abah, mungkin facebook. tapi farmville wajib? haish~check email pun wajib. malas nak tulis lagi pasal common sense. tapi masih jugak aku terfikir, logik apa yang kita guna sehingga membenarkan perkara-perkara tak relevan sebagai relevan dan signifikan.ha?

pointnya adalah : orang dekat tempat lain, walaupun ada yang membuang masa (itu untuk kita jadikan pedoman), ada jugak orang yang tahu meletakkan priority (yang ini tauladan). mungkin kita semua kena pergi kelas fiqh aulawiyaat. tapi, meng-allocate-kan masa untuk sesuatu yang stupid adalah satu jenis stupidity. along pernah berkata, a bunch of excellent students, when u groupkan together, mesti ada yang dah tak excellent lagi. something like that lah katanya. dari segi academically, itu something aside, soal yang lebih penting lagi adalah bila a bunch of excellent students, duduk sama-sama tapi tak mampu menyumbang apa-apa pada kemajuan agama, bangsa dan negara sebab, sebab, sebab..........................

lagi satu soal prinsip. yang salah adalah salah, yang betul adalah betul. jangan kata "saya ok je...saya tak kisah je..." pada yang salah. kita ni hidup kenalah jadi sehabis baik, bukan meletakkan satu limitasi," i dont wanna appear so religious, cuz i might lose some friends, or it;s ok to bend the wire a lil bit here and there, life is all about balance." - sekarang buat judgment masing2 utk statement sebegini.

buat benda baik untuk timbal balik benda jahat, now that's ok.
buat benda jahat untuk timbal balik benda baik, now that's extreme moronic behavior.

marilah kita sama-sama cari balik 10 wasiat as-syahid imam hassan al-banna. kita check semula, di mana letaknya kita. determination kita macam mana. sampai bila kita nak jadi "orang biasa-biasa". takut2 "orang biasa-biasa" ni menyebabkan hidup kita stuck untuk dunia semata2.

sila ke blog akak hawwwt untuk sedikit lagi renungan. cewah. Jailul Mansyud

p/s: entry penuh emosi.urghhh yucks!
p/p/s: For God's sake i'm almost 21 and people are arguing about what kind of emails u should send to a yahoogroup. wth?


p/s: comments disabled cuz i said it is a muhasabah entry and the discussion seems to lead into an emotional scene. and of course, to please everyone who thinks it's inappropriate. tapi turut disertakan komen kak kilah yg mantap.




kilah said...


ekceli dri semalam akak nk quote maqalah yusuf Qardhawi psl pemuda..

tp,tk jumpa buku.
tkpe akak quote buku lain..

Sejak zaman Nabi Adam hingga makhluk terakhir ciptaan Allah tidak pernah ada dua org yg benar2 sama.Sebab itu,mengapa masih ada org yg memaksakan diri utk menyamakan perilaku dan keperibadannya dgn org lain..

TAPI..
dalam masa yg sama..
Manusia dianjurkan Allah ke arah yg lebih baik dri hari ke hari..

Siapa yg untung..kita juga..
Tak mahu syurga ka bai??


SUNDAY, JANUARY 24, 2010 6:53:00 AM GMT+02:00

adieu

Friday, January 22, 2010

death hurts both ways.

dan wan telah pergi meninggalkan kami semua, yang  mencintainya sepenuh hati.

dalam 2.00 pagi macam tu, dapat msg dari kakak, "Wan dah meninggal jam 7 pg tadi". aku terkejut. check facebook, kakak dah tinggalkan msg tu 20 minit sebelum tu. Kak ngah kudik yg msg kakak kat facebook jugak. nasib baik budak2 ni jenis pagi2 dah facebook. kakak call abah di parit buntar (it's friday, abah menjemput mama balik ipoh). abah pun terkesima. aku pun. air mata dah berlinang2. mengenangkan wan, wanita yang signifikan dalam hidup aku.

wan dah tua sangat. seingat aku wan cuma ada darah tinggi, jadi wan pantang makan. dulu mas awan sihat wan penah duduk di Ipoh. wan masakkan tempoyak masak dengan jeruk maman. yang wan buat je sedap. lepas tu aku tak jumpa yg sedap mcm wan punya lagi. wan sihat, sebab selalu berkebun. kalau lama wan terbaring dalam rumah, wan akan jadi lemah. tapi bila turun ke tanah, dia akan cepat sihat. kami panggil wan, wan bukit sebab rumahnya atas bukit. ada tiga rumah atas bukit tu. bukit paya tengang, belakangnya ada paya.

dulu bukit tu tinggi, sekarang dah tak tinggi. jalan raya dah ditinggikan sebab kawasan Kg.Mengkarak tu selalu banjir. tp rumah wan tak naik air. tapi bila nak ke pekan kenalah naik sampan. tapi aku tak pernah merasa balik kampung bila banjir. sigh~ wan dari aku kecik umur dy 80 je. semua orang tak tahu umur wan sebenarnya berapa. mak-mak dan ayah-ayah pun semua dah berusia, jadi tak boleh nak keep track dah. wan menjadi  penyatu keluarga. sepupu-sepupu abah yang dah tak ada mak ayah pun bila cuti2 akan balik ziarah wan, sebab wan lah mak semua orang. wan ada banyak cicit.

lama-lama kesihatan wan makin merosot. wan tak ingat sangat benda-benda baru. lama-lama yang cerita lama pun dia lupa. satu fasa, wan suka bercerita, menyesal tak siapa tak dengar cerita wan tu? aku kadang2 dengar attentively, tp kadang2 aku bagi respon, tapi mata baca komik. tp masa tu wan pun dah tak begitu ingat lagi. makin lama wan tak kenal lagi ramai orang sampai yang tinggal hanya Abdul Rahman (my cousin) dan Basariah saje yang wan ingat. tp kadang2 wan ingat mama. dan kadang2 ingat abah jugak.  september yg lalu aku sempat ziarah wan. mama kata, kita dah kena bersedia dengan apa-apa kemungkinan.

wan tak boleh membaca. tapi pendidikan anak2 semua terjaga. wan selalu pergi sekolah tanya dengan cikgu2 tentang anak-anak wan. wan susah membesarkan anak-anak lepas arwah aki tak ada. cucu yang wan bela semua menjadi, sebab wan lembut tapi berdisiplin. wan suka bercerita kisah-kisah nabi. dengan cerita sang kelembai. sekarang maklang yg selalu ceritakan.

wan ajar kita semua macam-macam. dan paling berharga hadiah yang wan tinggalkan untuk aku adalah Abah. terima kasih wan sebab membesarkan abah, sehingga menjadi abah ikah. i guess, kita semua telah mula merindui wan the moment she forgets. masa tu kita dah rindukan wan yang lama. tapi setidak-tidaknya kita masih boleh kucup sayang wajah hangatnya. sekarang tidak lagi.

kalau balik kampung, dulu wan mesti pesan "Wan doakan aok selamat pergi selamat balik...berjaye dalam plajaran...". doa wan itu mengiringi setiap anak cucunya.

kali terakhir dengar pasal wan dari Along. along kata wan dah makin tak ingat, tapi masih boleh baca ayat-ayat suci alquran yang wan hafal. along kata, benarlah alquran tak akan meninggalkan manusia yang melaziminya.

sekarang wan telah menemui kerehatan yang eternal setelah puluhan tahun di negara ujian ini.

semoga Allah tempatkan roh wan dalam kalangan hamba-hambanya yang beriman. dan semoga seluruh anak-cucu wan tertempat dalam kalangan hambanya yang bersabar atas kehilangan. amin.

p/s: kali terakhir ada saudara yg pergi meninggalkan aku adalah 1997, wan andak ketar. so, make this the first  time for my life. death hurts both ways, expected or unexpectedly.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

dan gendang perang pun dipalu

cewah. aku rasa gendang perang dipalu bila keluar tarikh exam final. huhu. tapi takpe, saje mengambil kesempatan.

semoga kita semua menjalani peperiksaan dalam keadaan beriman, dan keluar periksa serta menerima keputusannya juga dalam keadaan beriman, berperilaku macam orang beriman. okeh? minta perlindungan supaya tak jadi hamba yang kufur nikmat, atau lupa hakikat hidup ini ada Tuhan.

org kata, kalau kita masih rasa takut bila nak pergi exam, maksudnye kita belum berserah sepenuhnya kepada Allah. tapi takut tu mmg refkleks normal kot. tapi, kan lebih best bila pergi exam dengan penuh keyakinan semuanya adalah di tangan Allah, tapi doesn't mean kita tak perlu berusaha. (cliche gila!)


ok lah. selamat maju jaya semua, dari csi irbid. tak sabar plak nak holiday. huhu.

p/s: lagu chaiyya chaiyya tu memang tak ada kena mengena pun dengan filem inside man tu. movie slow, tapi modus operandi rompakannya mmg menarik.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

for the love of food :Papa John's

usai peperiksaan mid-term endocrine system, dapat call dari cik sopiah utk makan luar saja malam ni. tak payah masak. hardeez seems a lil bit boring makanya we went to papa john's. yeay! finally got the chance to dine-in at papa john's. it was my 3rd visit for this week (tak boleh complain gemuk for this behaviour), cik roco's birthday i got myself hawaiian pizza, then two nights before, cik jah plak complain kempunan tak dapat mkn puas haritu, so we got supreme papa plak, and tonite pasta was on the agenda.

hmmm. if we're talking pasta, bak kata cik roco, "alfredo is a total no-no". we had to had penne instead of spaghetti, "we got too many pasta order tonight" katenye... cik sopiah telah mengorder "diablo burst", cik roco "fetuccini alfredo" dan cik jah "chicken florentine". me? plain create-ur-own-pasta; nice mix n match concept of spaghetti (they got only one spaghetti left to serve) with red sauce, with additional ground beef, mushroom and mozarella. well, plain bolognaise i must say. ending up, the penne pasta was not really a good idea.but, the mix and match thingy is highly recommended cuz it turns out to be a nice dish. so, if u're thinking Papa John's - go for the pizza cuz they're simply the best!!!

Pizza : no one top their pizza like Papa John's. or so written in the mural painting. well, true!!! quoting cik roco lagi "pizza pun bleh tutup camni" sambil menikmati fisherman's pizza nya. good things are always difficult to express. haha. hawaiian pizza nye adelah sangat awesome cuma kurang nenas. super papa pulak memang superb, sampai tak terasa kezaitunannye.. huahua. paling penting lagi adalah their amazing pizza crust. still nice to eat even after you preheat them! they were amazing by themselves, but when u dip it into the buttery-garlic sauce, it'd be even better. heavenly!!!

for 26% tax, just like pizza hut, I'd personally recommen Papa John's over pizza hut. at least u got grated cheese on each table. next time we go papa john, i'll make sure to bring along plastik to kidnap the cheese.. he he he.. interior design was classy and intellectual until i found out the books were only 3D pop-up stuff... cess... baru malam ni tahu those were all fake. kalau takeout biasenye tunggu kat counter, so tadi baru dapat close up buku2 tu.. nasib baik tak pergi jenguk rak buku tu dgn bersemangat... melepz u!!!

dalam keghairahan kita nak memakan makanan yang indah ni, jangan lupa mengimarahkan institusi pemakanan tempatan seperti pizza forno... yelah, kalau bukan kita, sape lagi nak meyokong industri ekonomi setempat kan...

p/s: sambil tunggu loading nak create new entry, i inserted this "inside man" DVD (denzel washington, again as a negotiator) .sekali kur lagu hindustan plak (yang dalam movie Dil Se tu). apehal? apekah denzel washington pulak nak menari di atas keretapi??oh tidak~~~~ kalau ade penjelasannye, insyaAllah nantikan review inside man di cuti2 winter nanti. adios~~~


pps: selamat datang finals~

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

the world has a lot more to offer

lambat sungguh adrenaline rush nak menyampai untuk exam kali ni. well, the urgency to study well is finally here. and, it's never too late, kan??? yang penting adalah untuk sentiasa stay positive and do your(my) best.

today, i realized that the world has a lot more to offer. it certainly does.

been blogging short things lately, mungkin sebab i dont have much to talk about, and i find that short entries are rather useless. setakat bebel2 saja...seakan tidak bagus pulak...huahua.. lepas ni insyaAllah will jot down better stuff. huhu..

pheochromocytoma: adrenaline secreting tumor ; resource : House MD season 2 ep 1. sila betulkan statement ini jika didapati salah ye.

hey, all the best mates!


p/s: sebelum butang publish post diklik, nabkah came and made me sign this. btw, it's roco's birthday present from the so-called "most popular Malaysian" huahua...


Monday, January 11, 2010

overwhelmed

phoned along this evening, and muaz was there.
"muaz...muaz..maksu ni.."
"pah..pah..!"
"bukan opah la..ini maksu.."
and he uttered maksu!!!
three times man. it was overwhelming. awesome and simply mengharukan.
he called me maksu LIVE for the very first time. wow. and wow.

also, it's january 11th, which means it is roco's birthday. selamat 21 lah housemateku. semoga berkat umurnya dan lapang rezekinya. dan semoga semakin berdisiplin lah anak daranya si pocoyo seorang itu. aminnn.


p/s: exam ohhhh exam.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

for the love of food

kesedihan telah melanda sehari dua yang lalu. mula membodek2 cik kakak yang baik hati untuk membodek along n angah to sponsor me balik this winter break. it doesn't even make sense pun cuz, I have planned everything for my totally-in-Irbid holiday. just one or two things that makes me feel like nak balik bagai nak gila, especially my cutie pies itulah. dan sebab musabab lain jugak - weekend yg berlalu tanpa ada keghairahan nak memasak --> see how bad it is? I didn't realize until nobonobo says "patutla ko tak masak". I use to enjoy cooking for Friday's brunch.

but one thing that surprised me is how food brings joy into my life. even without cooking or cherishing every single bite. sharing the joy of good food, or how to make them with others simply makes me feel better. yippieeee! perhaps i should get back to sharing recipes on onebonez.huhu.


Friday, January 8, 2010

it's good to be afraid.

being afraid means that you have something to lose.
but there are also time when you have nothing, and perhaps no reason to feel anything.
and that sucks.

Exam Tuan Punya Blog

14th January - Endocrine Sytem MidTerm
17th January - Endocrine Sytem Final
21st January - Musculoskeletal System Final
27th January - Gastrointestinal System Final

untuk setiap kata yang tak terlafazkan, mungkin saja telah teriringi dalam doa. Selamat untuk semua =)

P/s: Idiopathic is latin for "idiots" cuz we can't figure out what's causing the disease - Gregory House.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

what are you carrying along?

Amaran : entry ini adalah rangkuman dua entry. panjang woo.

Aku teringat sebuah citer cina tv3 petang2 kul 6 tu. Ada dua orang sami ni berjalan2 sampai kat tepi sungai. kemudian, ada seorang perempuan tua kat situ. lalu seorang sami ni pun mendukung atau mengkok-kong wanita tua tu di atas belakangnya. sampai kat seberang sungai dia pun turunkan perempuan tu. dua orang sami berbalut kain kuning, berkepala botak dan ada tasbih bulat2 ni pun meneruskan perjalanan. let's say nama sami tu seorang Xiao Yun seorang lagi Xiao Fei (aku reka je ni, untuk memudahkan cerita). Xiao Yun ni susah hati sebab Xiao Fei telah mendukung pompuan tu. yela, mana bleh pegang yang bukan mahram, haram tu beb! dalam kegundahan dia tu, Xiao Fei ni pulak nampak rilek je.. lalu Xiao Yun pun menyuarakan rasa gundahnya itu, dan dibalas oleh Xiao Fei "Aku dah menurunkan perempuan tua itu lepas kita seberang sungai tadi, tapi nampaknya, kau masih "mendukung"nya. ". lebih kurang camtula citer nye.

citer kedua. aku dengar beberapa minggu lepas di Hayaat FM. segmen cerita tauladan.

Seorang cikgu tadika buat satu game untuk kanak2 kat raudhah dia. setiap murid disuruh bawak kentang dan menulis nama orang yang mereka benci atas kentang tu. kalau u benci seploh orang, bawak seploh kentang la kan. so, setiap hari selama seminggu, mana-mana adik-adik tu pergi, diorang kena bawak kentang tu. kentang tu dalam plastik la kan. masuk minggu kedua, kentang tu mula berbau busuk. budak2 pun lama-lama tak tahan nak bawak kentang tu lagi. so, cikgu dia pun suruh buang la kentang tu. cikgu dia pun kata, macam tu lah kebencian kalau kita dok simpan, ia akan memburuk dan menyusahkan kita. bila kita buang kebencian/kentang tu, maka satu beban telah terangkat dari hidup kita .




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Amaran : entry ini mungkin tidak berhikmah. Mungkin jugak emosi.

Email , singkatan kepada electronic mail adalah salah satu medium komunikasi super significant dalam hidup aku. I have three in-use email accounts for different purposes. Yang unused lagi lah tak terkira. Contohnye mase darjah 5 ada britneymail lah, citymail lah. Ish, malu mengenangkan. Haha.

Walau selewat mana pun aku untuk ke kelas, email tetap kena check dulu. Spam pun kena check jugak sebab kadang2 ada important mails yang masuk ke situ. Untuk pengetahuan, kalau yahoo mail je aku kena ada beberapa folder dan filters untuk memudahkan urusan. Folder facebook, medistjust, mep7,  atyaf 2007 utk approval msg baru, atyaf lama untuk msg2 penting atyaf yg dah approve. email morphine terpaksa guna akaun lain. Hidup memang berlegar sekitar email. Sebab tu bila tak ada internet, aku mmg takkan teragak2 mail browsing via phone je. Sebab emails adalah sangat signifikan. By this time, aku harap orang dah faham tahap kepentingan memeriksa inbox dalam hidup aku. Hakikatnya memang email adalah ketiga penting selepas cellphone and messenger.

Akaun paling penting mestilah yahoo, sebab kat situlah aku melanggan group2 penting seperti atyaf, mep 7, permai, newsletters lagi, jugak seratabest. Tapi, bila bangun pagi je tengok ada berpuluh2 unread (mmg sangat jarang berlaku sebelum ni, sbb aku mmg cepat check), dan yang banyak itu bukan folder facebook. Memang panas  sikit lah. Sbb facebook x penting pun.

Tapi bila yang penuh tu inbox. Dan yang banyak tu bukan email yang penting, memang sedikit kecewa, sebab sangat menyampah bila nk kena go through one by one utk tgk email mana yg perlu dibaca, filter pulak bab2 group tak terfilter dgn baik.. Dulu aku rasa, orang kalau lambat check email ni mmg akan ketinggalan dan susah wooo hidup kalau tak up-to-date. Tapi susah jugak hidup bila x ada common sense. Sebaik2 perkara adalah yang pertengahan. Berpada2 lah. Aku tulis ni 25 disember 2009. Saje draft dekat word supaya emosi maintain dan ade entry lain yg aku nak biarkan kat onebonez.

Boleh jugak kata aku poyo. Tapi, memang runsing lah! Nak-nak pulak tak boleh nak mendaily digestkan sebab kadang2 ada jugak maslahat penting nak datang dari satu2 subscription tu.

Yang penting adelah common sense. Mungkin ada jugak orang nak tak puas hati, tapi aku pun manusia dan untuk sekali ini aku rasa mush ma3qool kepesatan email yang sedemikian. Ini pun ok lah, aku letak kat blog je.  Sebab rasa sini yang sesuai. Akhir kata, aku sampai sekarang tak tahu bila medistjust gathering tu. Sekian.
Berukhuwah bagi aku bukan sekadar havoc2 di YG saje. Yang penting dalam hati beb. Ada banyak lagi cara lain untuk manifestasi ukhuwwah, contohnya dengan tidak merunsingkan seorang kawan dengan masalah seperti yang tersebut.
*stroke lah, ,masa publish ni, aku dah selamat pergi pun gathering tu!
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ini adalah contoh "kentang" yang malas aku nak bawak ke hulu ke hilir. jadi kentang ni aku longgokkan di onebonez. teheeee. aku dah lebih calmed, tapi aku tetap juga suarakan sebab aku rasa kita kena jugak bagi kesedaran pada masyarakat ttg common sense nih. nak post kat YG kang, takut menggores dan menang hati orang pulak.

p/s: keplastikan mmg tidak sihat untuk kehidupan. but being considerate is something good, i think.


p/p/s: dah banyak giler email dari YG tersebut tidak aku baca lagi. kalau masih berlanjutan, aku ingat nak consider mengundurkan diri saje dari YG tersebut. haih~

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

everybody wants to go to the States!

just got home from thyrotoxicosis discussion. discussion is definitely the part that i love and anticipate the most in a module, cuz it is the real integrated-system manifestation. i got to see things clearly in a discussion. and to make things even fun, today's discussion question starts with differential diagnosis, God I love it! haha.

I love mustard on my hotdogs, i have my wedges with cheese dipping, i love nachos and i think subway's sandwiches are LAAAAMEEE. definitely am not a big fan of subway. and here i am, with my regular weekly basis "wa7ad kibdeh wa7ad slush" menu. no wonder i get bad grades, must be the kbidah!!! -->miss blamey me talking <----

I would love to go the the States. who doesnt??? for whatsoever reason people has, education, money or technology. today is the day i wished Malaysia was colonized by the Americans instead of the British, simply cuz i think the American system is better. hahaha. ungrateful! last week, i attended this American Medical Clinical association briefing for those who're interested to do their elective in the states. the university is about to sign an MoU with the AMC to help our students for better opportunity to do their residency in the States. I didnt plan to blog this, but yesterday I bump into this girl who's planning to take USMLE and she gave me some tips, so i guess it would be worth it to share it here.

For detailed requirement please visit AMC website www.amclinicals.com . but for rough ideas, do stay with this post. For IMG (international Medical Graduates) like us, inshallah there are few specialties & states in the USA that are IMG-friendly. such as family med, internal med and surgery. in states like New York, New Jersey. if you wanna match for residency, u'll need to ace USMLE both step 1 and step 2 with single attempt. scoring 85 in your first attempt is much much better than scoring 100 at your 2nd attempt. yup, numbers of attempts matters! and you'll need recommendation from doctors in the USA and also evaluation from teaching hospitals in the States. for THIS clinical experience, you're gonna need to do your elective there. so that you make friends/connections with doctors there and this is the way you got your clinical experience as required to  match for a residency.

and the AMC will be a good help for both the elective + matching for a residency, they are providing services to help make your resume a good one. =) the average amrks of American medical graduates, as told, in USMLE is 80, the IMGs has 91, but still AMG matches more than the IMGs cuz they're well organized and knows what to do when. Arabs are born with gifted good memorizing capacity, 91 is not a big surprise, and that 80 for AMG - must be because of too much porn  unhealthy entertainment. oopsie. basically, it's because of lacking clinical experience in the States that makes IMG fails to match for residency programme.

what i learnt last night is that, it is better to take USMLE step 1 during this preclinical years cuz we still remember things. and use books like BRS and high-yield ++ question banks. for step 2 wait until your 5th or 6th years or during our internship. score these exams, go for elective in the States, apply for your residency and voila!!! you secure a good chance at matching for a residency programme.of course there'll be interview with the medical director and stuff..

anyway.. if you're interested in the elective thing, AMC will help you with it. 3300$ - 4000$ (currently) for housing, tuition fee, malpractce insurance + transportation in the states (flight tickets excluded). why on earth am i writing all this?? in case some people are interested in pursuing their American dream. and as for me, I have my american dream but considering that 4000$ and the fact that I DO plan to end up working in Malaysia as a loyal government servant, perhaps it's not that smart to do the elective in the states, except for the adventure and excitement, but still i plan to save money, in case i change my mind. by the way, if u wanna do your elective for more than 3 months (JUST students allowed for 2 months only) u're gonna need STEP 1.

and personally, I would love to go to New York, California and Florida. =) perhaps i should go there on a vacation or on a honeymoon. cuz really there's no point of doing the elective there for the "baik me" just want to finish housemanship, get married and settle down someplace near to mommy's house so I can hantar my kids to their grandma. hahah. evil grin. talked to a 2nd year resident from pathology dept (she's the one with our discussion) and she said, after the 4 years residency she'll become a speacialist and then can continue with her subspecialty. and i curse those birokrasi + seniority system in our country. in fact im not even clear about how thing goes in my beloved country. perhpas i should just pack my things and take my family with me and get a green card (berangan sangat kau!)

till then, i have an exam or should i say exams to study for. do pray for me, In God We Trust.

Monday, January 4, 2010

your life your choice

Life is about making choices. what else?

You choose your ending and you create your way towards it. As simple as that.

And you choose what kind of person you wanna be. An honest person, or someone who says nice things to make others happy. and yet they say honesty is the best policy. If you deserve to feel like crap, I should treat you so that you feel like crap. If you deserve to feel good, I will treat you so that you feel good. Not making you feel good while you should feel like crap. it's your call, to be or not to be.

crappy crap.

Sunday, January 3, 2010

That one person you can never get mad with.

Wooohoooo~

I just pimped my desktop that makes it looks slightly different than usual. haha. after hours and hours spent, when cik ex-pengantin asked what do I got from this, it was somehow head-scratching question. i guess, it makes me feel, slightly happy, at least for the time being. ngeh3... later when i got bored i change back lah.

Called encik along, with our usual headlines, "Ha, ini i ade hawwwttt story baru ni". and he giggled hearing that. biasalah, nak start conversation mesti kena ada attention grabber. tak gitew??? that's not important. yesterday was my 2nd-kuih kasturi-trial. turned out ok, although in the beginning i almost give up because the adunan got so lembik... thank you nobonobo kerana terus memberikan semangat kepada cik tam untuk meneruskan misi kuih kasturi. it was abah's favorite by the way.

so, i called abah and told him,
 "Abah, ikah dah pandai buat kuih kasturi tau!"
 "Jadi ke kuih kasturi kamu?"
 "aish,, jadi..."
 "ape susah nye buat kuih kasturi, rebus kacang, bubuh gula merah, kelapa.. tepek tepek tepek, goreng"
 "laaaaa............ abah tau ke buat??? abah tak penah buat pun kat umah..."
 "malas.." 


it sucks when u're trying to impress abah, and he's already good at it. mungkin masa abah kecik2 dulu wan buat kuih kasturi agaknya. but true, kadang2  kita buat sesuatu tu bukannya kita nak makan sangat pun, kadang tu saje terkenang aje.. and today I made nasi kerabu resepi from kakhusna. the main thing was to try our one-month-old-telur-masin. turns out, kuning telur tak berapa masin. mungkin sebab it is not telur itik. nvm. we're going for the 2nd month to see what'll happen next.

okay. sekarang nak buat pesanan khidmat masyarakat pulak.

ketahuilah, if there's one person on earth you can never get mad with/at; it's your mom. no one can or should. she's that one woman who are willing to die for you simply so that you could see the world. she won't mind not having enough sleep just to stay awake at night when you're not feeling so good. she's that one woman who would spend the rest of the night with you when you're scared. she's that one person who wouldn't mind giving everything she possess, even if it's her organs, if that's what you need to survive.

if you didn't call her to tell how you're doing, she's never mad at you, she'll think that you're too busy studying but she's also worried if you're ok or not.
if you treat her bad, she won't get mad back at you, she'll think you probably have some problems with your friends, she's just worried that you might got hurt.
if you ask for money, she wont hesitate to give it, simply because she doesn't want you to feel the hardship she went through.
a child, can never make a mother mad, because no matter what mistake he/she did, he/she is always "just a little boy/girl in the eye of a mother".

i love my mom, a lot. i don't have enough words to express my feelings for her. I just thank God that my mom is still with me, and I know she'll always be there for me. no doubt about it. she knows me better than i know myself. simply because she's a mother, my mother.

it annoys me, and it irritates me to see people not treating mothers in the way they should have. hey, that woman gave birth to you, you can never repay that, NEVER, and there's nothing on earth you can give to a mother that equals the sacrifice she made in her life for a child. make your mom happy, and God will make your life happy. as simple as that. make your mom sad, do the maths. ;)

Friday, January 1, 2010

once in a blue moon


I'm running between things i have to do. but still, i have the urgency to jot this down.

blue moon lah last night.
thanx to cik phatroco kerana memaklumkan kpd unit semasa onebonez semasa sesi jalan-jalan malam semalam. balik terus google lah. of course lah bulan was not literally blue.

basically it's the 2nd full moon for a month, and having this blue moon on new year's eve, is really very rare, and not going to happen again until 2038. subhanallah. kirenya blue moon ni ibaratnya extra full moon lah for everyone =)

speaking of which, reminds me of my favorite "sound" - Once in a Blue Moon. ha.. sape tengok citer Jepun With Love masa kita kecik2 dulu tahulah kot. the one got HATA-san and teruterubozu love story itulah, when internet love still was not so popular. i can't remember everything in the series, but i know i love drawing teruterubozu on my notes and even made some of them. it's basically a Japanese belief of patung cuaca baik, u draw happy face on your teruterubozu. sometimes i'd draw crying face. hehe.

ok lah, untuk yang tercari2.



happy birthday angah


I can't find any pictures of him in my simpanan. perhaps because i didnt see him too much. Happy 29th birthday - rase macam dah tua sangat pulak you! - mungkin sudah patut berkahwin dan expecting anak seorang. tengok keletah anak sedara mcm muaz n azam, mustahil tak terdetik di hati beliau untuk punya keluarga sendiri kot. (i pun mestilah doakan dy kahwin cepat).

it's my brother, angah, Mohamed Fairuz aka Ilus. dont know lah how to express thing, tercall beliau lewat plak tadi, kesian encik 3 pagi menjawab call i pulak. esok kerja plak tuh, Johor x amik cuti new year. Semoga berkat umur, dikurniakan kesihatan, ditingkatkan keimanan dan ilmu pengetahuan, dan mudah2an menjadi hamba Allah yang bertaqwa. dan semestinya kita dambakan jua kekal menjadi keluarga di syurga nanti. amin ea rabb..

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Ada Apa dengan Tahun Baru 2010???

for me and my friends in Jordan, obviously : Kurang Cuti. sebab most cuti peristiwa jatuh bergolek pada hari Jumaat, which is mmg cuti pun. so.. xde cuti tambahan lah kirenye. sadistik sungguh!

abah sebenarnya tak bagi sambut tahun baru. cuz he says it's in a way adalah perayaan berdasarkan agama jugak sebenarnya. so, i dont really got thrilled with it, nak countdown2 dsb. though, i think it's a good turning point juga. it's good to have many important dates in your life to at least give u some motivation. so, for me it's okay lah to make new resolutions ke, rasa lebih bersemangat ke. and mine would be, walking off few Kgs la pastinye and eating healthy and simply to live every second to the fullest.

till next time, take care people. =)