blessing

Finally, u-max in CSI...yeay![alhamdulillah]

palestine, is not just a fight for Arabs,it is our fight.our responsibility. I hope one day we could all wake up and introduce ourself just as Muslims who are brother and not as Malaysian or JOrdanian or . [though sometimes i feel like saying i'm Jordanian..lols-forgive me for loving Jordan soooo much]

sekadar renungan ringkas for everyone.
kadang2 kita asik bersungut. we complain too much.tp tengoklah saudara kita di Gaza, i dont think we have the right to complain because Allah has given us too much and we really have to be grateful. Malulah kepada saudara kita di Gaza, jangan kita kufur dengan nikmat yang ada.

teruskan boycott,[insyaAllah will come up with my next entry on alternatives to boycott-listed stuff].and of course, keep on going with our prayers for them, without losing faith.

i realized today that being a person who can hope,depend and believe in Allah is a blessing not everyone can have. Thank you Allah. I hope Allah will make this feeling last forever. and may all of us be able to cherish every single blessing and gift from Allah, and not losing hope in HIM.

for you

lama tak blogging. sibuk bukan alasan, tapi tak ada internet connection adalah sebab kukuh kenapa tak blogging. nak pecah rasanye otak bila banyak yang nak dibebelkan kat onebonez ni tak kesampaian. draft dah berlambak2 dalam laptop tapi nk transfer ke pendrive, bawak ke cc... is never something easy. tunggulah U-MAX dah ade modem...

unfortunately or perhaps fortunately, i think i really need to jot this down.

i dont have friendster account. i use facebook instead. cuz it seems more fun and in a way more beneficial than friendster [to some extent, and this is my personal opinion] cuz basically i use my facebook to widen my horizon of arabs friends among my colleagues. and stay in touch with people i think i should keep in touch with. now, here's the twist.

i know a friend who makes use of facebook ultimately to convey messages regarding what is happening in gaza. advertising on blood donations, boycott campaign, prayers and everything. may Allah bless him for his effort and eases his way. Yet i know maaaaany people manifesting their ignorance on this isssue on facebook. yea, status or changing profile pictures or joining causes or group is not enough. and i may not be the person who care most and do most for my Muslim brothers and sisters in Gaza, yet i believe people who thinks of Gaza wont do such things "some people" do on facebook. i don't mean ignorant as in not joining the causes, group or sending videos or messages about Gaza. i mean, MANIFESTING IGNORANCE by showing that you behave in your real life as if it has nothing to do with you. Shame on you.

be real. i read this post on saifulislam which points out that the jews and christians nowadays are real, exactly like what has been described by Allah in the Quran. yet, Muslims we have today, doesn't possess the criteria of true Muslim as has been guided in the Quran. Shame on us. And how is it possible for such a reality to be defeated by fantasies. impossible and un-do-able.

all i'm saying, as long as Muslims refuse to practice Islam. things will be difficult. really difficult.

for give me brothers and sisters in Gaza for not being able to help you as much.

once my lecturer say, we often love to apologize. i thought of apologizing if what i'm going to say might hurt some parties, but remembering what Dr. Jameel said, that we shouldn't apologize when we're right, i wont put any apologizing statement preceeding my next comment.

aku merasakan masyarakat irbid semakin sakit. [bukan literally] boleh jadi aku juga di kalangan orang yang sakit di irbid ini. doaku agar Allah sembuhkan semua pesakit-pesakit di Irbid ini dan mudah-mudahan doktor2 yang boleh merawat pesakit2 di irbid ini diberi kekuatan untuk meneruskan rawatan. aku berdoa juga mudah-mudahan tidak ada penyakit di irbid ini yang bersifat multi-drug resistant, dan paling2 aku harap janganlah Allah campakkan aku dalam golongan itu. aku letih hari-hari mengetahui cerita2 sakit ni dan aku tak ada kekuatan untuk berbuat apa2. terima kasih Allah kerana masa dan kemampuan untuk aku coret2 hari ini.

boleh jadi sedang2 kau membaca ini, kau rasa takut kau lah orang yang sakit. kalau kau x rasa, sebenarnya memang kau sakit.

aku selalu mendengar kalau maksiat itu biasanya perkara yang kita lakukan secara sembunyi2 dan tak mahu orang lain mengetahuinya. sekejap aku terdiam, kalau orang melakukan maksiat secara terbuka, [aku x tahu nak sambung apa,sindrom lama x blogging,u lose all your words] kau bukan tak tahu, bahkan kau lebih tahu dari aku [yang masa sekolah menengah x amik PSI]. kalau kau terlupa, aku harap kau akan ingat. kalau kau terleka aku harap kau akan sedar. aku x mampu lagi berbuat apa2 kecuali menulis di sini dan berharap kau membaca dan kau rasa. jangan sebab dosa kita di irbid, rakyat Gaza menderita.

aku berbasa-basi sebab kalau direct sangat ada orang tinggalkan komen lazer pulak kat blog aku ni.

the how-i-lost-my-burger story

after genetics exam, my friend suggested we go to mcdonalds which is few blocks away from home. well,im not suppose to have any mcdonalds burger [at least until i have my cholestrol level checked] so, i thought of having filet-o-fish... good girl! but quarter way, i thought "one double cheese burger wont do me any harm,and i can postpone my blood test later"



then I called home. and when i said

me:ok la ma, jap lg nk gi makan ni....
mama:ha,nak makan ape tu...?kamu jangan nak makan yg kolestrol2 sgt ikah...dah pergi check utk bulan ni belum?
me:ikan2..makan ikan...burger ikan...aaa...esok2 nak pergi amik darah
mama:kalau x turun lg kolestrol tu,kurangkan lagi makan yag minyak2 tu...

then abah. and we come to this point

abah:dah pergi check darah?
me:belum2...esok abah,esok...ok la abah nak gi makan ni...lapar giler..
abah:ha, tu nak makan ape lagi tu?
me:ikan.burger ikan.daging2 ni ikah da x makan dah...burger daging lagi x makan...xde2...



so, i'm sooo not the kind that lie to my parents.so i ordered filet-o-fish. last time i went to mcdonalds i only had mcflurry...and its been a month since i last have burger from mcdonalds or any other fastfood chain... and i have been refraining myself from it.

btw, i have hypercholestrolemia. its nothing serious as mama always said before but today she opened up.

me:ma, ikah tanye la ngn doctor ikah...[referring to dr.nidal...of course i didnt tell him, i was asking bout myself...] ape kena mengena short of breath dengan hypercholestrolemia...as we took in patho kan... then he said,
mama:memang lah. salur darah tu dah tersumbat...
me:haah...dia kata, ada satu point tersumbat, pastu effect jantung, pastu oksigen dalam lung..
mama:u see, belajar ni mmg interesting...bla bla bla...


salur darah tersumbat? mama really makes me feel like, i do have occluded vein... and not to mention, dr. yusouf who seems like out of example in our biostat lessons... i can never recall a single lecture which he didnt say the word hypercholestrolemia...at least it does make me think for a while, ooooo i really should work on this problem.

so, say no to high-cholestrol food. hello healthy life-style!

p/s: im packing my stuff cuz we're leaving this villa. wait for csi returns [once we have internet la...]

*hypercholestrolemia : : the presence of excess cholesterol in the blood