saye anak seorang polis pencen

my abah adelah seorang polis pencen. entry ini ditulis lepas ronda-ronda youtube. too much FRU on youtube is not healthy. i dont know why, tp aku rase aku pernah suka tengok FRU.i mean, their formation, command and all. mcm suka tengok org kawad. abah was not in the unit, he takes care of persenjataan and memusnahkan bom only. i think that was superbly cool. but everytime abah had to go to deploy any explosive, we let him go with prayers for his safety and well-being. i've seen some FRU stuff, and i used to think they were cool. still do. especially the mask. i can recall the smell of the mask. i know i have once been in contact with it. perhaps when i went to abah's office or maybe sebab abah guna untuk sembur racun lalang. haha.

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one day, recently, i asked abah about how could a person be as cold-hearted as people on the team. well, of course i have my perceptions on them, (i just realized that i used to adore the unit when i was just a little girl,today) and i can't believe a muslim could counter another muslim saying out loud, in the name of Allah. i mean, i'm surprised to see Laa Ilaha Illallah being countered with whatever the squad are chanting. perhaps Allah has taken away the blessing of fear upon hearing His name. nauzubillah. then abah told me, those guys doesnt have much choice, cuz it's work and some were not even happy with what they do. so, u might as well encounter fru who're not really into bashing people and stuff. well, then i start to see things differently, but pepatah melayu mengatakan, kerana nila setitik rosak susu sebelanga? i hope Allah grants us all hidayah and eases their way for other options in life.

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i wonder if their family keeps any grudge on them. i wonder if they can sleep sound at night. i wonder, i really do.

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because of abah, i dont utter any bad words about the police. i dont think it's fair, cuz i know abah is a good cop.

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i know it would be AWESOME if there are really bad guys on the street and to see the FRU doing their stuff. but seeing them against people who are trying to fight for justice and truth, it sucks. tp org yg jalan sebelah formation dy biasenye selamat je kan. haha.

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still when people ask me, i say "malaysia is a very nice country, safe, peace. but Jordan's weather is better". i hope they dont check out youtube often.