Wednesday, January 25, 2017



My first day in Gerik was not so bad. Abah tailed me all the way from home, being patient with my sub-par driving skill.. (Last week on my way home, while attempting to overtake a lorry, I nearly crashed into a car from opposing direction - so today every time I'm overtaking a lorry, I would have palpitation.. aiyoh)

Menyedari pergantungan hanya pada Allah.

Sampai je di bilik sewa, tuan rumah pun dimaklumkan yang kami ni hanya akan menyewa untuk sebulan sebab dah dapat rumah sewa di taman berhampiran. Lepas tu tuan rumah pun bukak cerita kejadian pecah masuk kat kawasan tu.. Disusuli pesanan-pesanan orang tua, kawan-kawan orang tua berkenaan perkara-perkara yang kena berjaga-jaga kat Gerik ni..

I know mom is very worried - we both cried during our goodbyes. This transfer is very hard for me, mommy and my husband I guess. But we have all asked Allah to arrange for the best for us, and slowly we are accepting that THIS IS the best for us.

During dinner, Nad's father reminded us to amalkan doa-doa untuk keselamatan..

أعوذ بكلمات الله التامات من شر ما خلق

بسم الله الذي لا يضر مع اسمه شيء في الأرض ولا في السماء وهو السميع العليم

Doa abu Darda'

At which I realized here, I only have Allah as my guardian and companion.
(Alhamdulillah ade jugak Nad sebagai kawan susah senang for god-knows-how-many-months). Something I have long forgotten sebab di rumah, selalunya rasa secure... Bila dah berjauhan macam ni memang terasa sangat kebergantungan tu hanya pada Allah SWT. Sepatutnya kat rumah pun kena ingat, Allah tu satu-satunya tempat bergantung..huhu... Alhamdulillah Allah bagi peluang nak beringat..

Mama pesan, take this hardship as an opportunity to become a better person as a whole. I am very positive at this moment (sad that Im away from my beloved ones but at the same time, optimistic of the goodness that are about to come my way, inshaAllah).

Today I was also reminded of what an amazing support system I have - my family and my CSI family. I told everyone about how upset I was about this transfer and they did nothing but sending good vibes and prayers for me. God bless these amazing souls, and if ever comes the time they need me, I wish I could be as great support as they were to me today. Thank you guys.