i speak up for only two reasons, #1- something is annoying me #2- because i care for a particular person. well, too bad i just realized, i only speak up to people whom i think i can be outspoken with. basically family, friends, i mean close friends - u know, people i really care about. and lately, i recalled some of my "outspoken" moments with mama, and i think i was being quite harsh at expressing my thoughts, well i was young back then!
i love the tagline from yasmin ahmad's gubra (dont ask, i really love the movie) "why do we hurt the most, the ones we love the most?" i guess, i just realized that this is exactly what i'm doing. sometimes being outspoken hurts people around you. (i promise i wont be so hard on you people next time) well, since that we hardly spend time together, so i have less thing to be expressive with. but kakak if u're reading this and u ever felt i AM too harsh on you, i'm terribly sorry. wink wink.